Firefly/ Serenity

I've been watching one of my new all time favorite TV shows. Unfortunately it's only available via DVDs but I'm happy anyway. The show aired on Fox ( who sucks for cancelling it) a little while ago. I was into it then and I've grown to enjoy it more and more, each time I watch a episode. The show is more that what it appears, some people think "oh it's just a Sci Fi show". Let me tell you that fact has almost nothing to do with it. The show is about the relationships of a group of nine people who are all travelling away from something. To me that's what comes thru when I watch a episode, not the sci fi part, that's just the background. What comes to the forefront is writing, the humor and the interactions of the characters.

Firefly and other shows continue to inspire me to keep writing and drawing and hoping to create something cool and sell able. I would still like to create a book or a comic book series that is on par with the movies and shows I enjoy. But I've noticed that it gets harder as I get older. There has been times I've felt like "giving up" on ART. Currently my sticker company is failing, mostly because of lack of money to invest in the business, especially the printing and promoting. Good luck getting a small business loan, you have to be doing well to qualify for a business loan. If my business was doing $10,000 in sales a month WHY would I need a small business loan????? WTF! Nothing is easy, nothing except doing nothing...

9/11 six years

On the six anniversary of 9/11 it's hard to believe that so much and so little time has passed. To me growing up in NYC it's a very painful day. The loss of life, the massive destruction, the cold cruel attack, and the feeling of unfinished payback.

The WTC was very special to me. Growing up in NYC the World Trade was like a beacon, no matter where in the city you were all you had to do was look up and get your bearings. Once I moved to Jersey City I still looked forward to taking the Path train into the WTC station. The buildings were more than just steel and glass, they were part of NY, part of home. They were a symbol of New York and of America, they gone like the victims, way too young.

Those stinking hateful ragheads still have not paid enough. I'm sad about a couple of things; 1) they haven't yet replace or built something in place of the WTC. 2) that Bin ***hole is still breathing air. 3) We as a country have become divided and some have forgotten there are people who want to kill us. 4) and of course all those people who died that day and their families who have to struggle on, god bless.

It's a same when I play with my 4 year old nephew he won't know the joy the WTC use to bring to everyone that ever saw them in their glory. I was a child of the cold war, I joined the military because I thought it was necessary, now I worry about him and all of the future generations, who will have to deal with fundamentalist hate for the next several decades. One of the few things I agree with GW is that we will be fighting this war on terror for a very long time. Neither side can surrender or step back.

Sorry for the random thoughts, this is a very hard day for me.